The Diary....

5 Jan

Today is my first day of school and I'm kind of nervous for today... And, the most important thing is, I'm LATE for school!!!! Diary, I hope everything is fine for me today.. Diary, please wish me luck! Oh, stupid me! Diaries can't talk! Anyway, I hope everything's the way I planned...

6 Jan

I'm so happy today! Because, I have made a new friend here... Her name is Tiara. She's friendly and good. I like her. I hope our friendship will last longer...

8 Jan

Diary, I'm so damn tired today! I have piles of homework to be done, but I feel kind of sleepy and I think I have no time to do my homework! I have the strength just to watch my homework on my desk and thinking what would happened next... Guess I have to wake up early next morning to make my homework done... There's no other way...

9 Jan

I had already done all my homeworks and feel so great. It's like, I want to go back in bed and sleep again... But, I have to help mom ready the breakfast for my brothers and sisters. Oh, well, it's my duty, right? So, gotta go!

9 March

It had been a long time that I did not write diaries... You know why? Because I have problems and exam... The problems are my best friend ( that I thought so) had dumped me just because of those girls who thinks that they are the most popular girls in this school! Oh, so, they think all the students in this school know them? I don't think so! Because of them too, I lose my best friend! I know, I realized that I'm just a dumb fat ugly girl that made a very slim pretty popular girl into an ugly and unpopular girl, right? So, they'd poisoned her mind already? I can't believe that! Okay, her "friends" had invited me to join their group and I said....."Yes" (and I feel so dumb and stupid!).
But, now, they dumped me and don't care about me and they put me in the list of a family that they hate so much! They all in the family of "The Perfect Family" and me? I'm in the "The Ugly Family"! Can't you see that? I'm in that kind of family and they in a good and perfect family! I saw their Scrap Book and read it yesterday and I saw Tiara wrote about her best friends and what a shock of me that my name is not in it! I feel so sad and I feel just want to say to the world that this world is unfair!
I cry and cry and cry in my bedroom all day long and when my mom asked me about my eyes, I didn't say anything and here I am, writing my diary and not going to school! I feel so sad... It's like I want to hug somebody and let out my feelings...

11 March

Today is my birthday! But, the sad thing is, Tiara didn't say or wish anything to me today... See? She doesn't like to be my friend anymore... She also tell lies about me that I admire the Young Security in our school. Although I never know the existence of that guy BEFORE! Am I so low that everyone doesn't like my existence in this world that they always want to make fun and bully me? Oh, come on! Just tell me the truth what is my wrong that they all hate me and doesn't want to be my friend!
Hey, my mom and dad also had their hope in me fading... What had I done wrong actually? Oh yeah, this year, I had no birthday to celebrate and don't you think that it is too over? By the way, you're the only one who is always by my side whenever I am in trouble, problems and also happiness... Diary, I love you so much!

15 March

I am so happy today! You know why? Because, I got new friends! They're just an ordinary friends and well, they're good and doesn't like Tiara, she's a bit nosy now... I hate her and her best friends ( like she used to say or shouting at me when I passed her )... Well, at least, my new friends doesn't like to be pretty. They are who they are. Their name are, Keisha, Agnes, Ruby, Ashleigh, Carlita and Liana. They are all good to me and they care for me. I love to be with them and they also the one who teach me LOVE. They taught me how to love somebody with all of your heart and make somebody love you with all of their heart. That's when I finally met this guy. I'll tell you about him tomorrow.Goodnight.

16 March

I'm so happy today because I talked with my crush just now and I felt so happy. I finally got his name and I think he's so cute! Awww... I can't get him out of my mind. Let me tell you what is his name. His name start with a letter "E". His name just suits his look. Anyway, tomorrow is holiday and i have 1 week of holiday and hope mom and dad will bring me somewhere to relax my mind.

19 March

Nothing to do today. Just now I took Harry ( Our dog ) for a walk and it's like I'm the one who being take a walk by a dog! I felt my cheek warm. But, anyway I feel my holiday is boring. Can't you just imagine holidays without fun? It's boring, isn't it? I feel like I want to sleep.

27 March

Dear Diary,

I think, I can't write you at this moment because I will have many work to do and maybe I will have no time to write on you and share my stories with you. So, please don't be sad. I'll write on you when all these had over. I hope these will over quickly.

27 May

Hi! Here I come again! Hooray! Today is his birthday! But, I'm so scared to talk to him... I'm even shy of saying "Hi" to him... Oh, I hope I have the guts to talk to him.

31 August

I hate him! I hate him! He only look at my outer, not my inner! Why? Everything must be judged only by its outer? Can you tell me what is the attitude of a very pretty young lady at the pub? Can you? Can you just judged her? Can you know her attitude just from her outer? I bet the answer is NO, right?
So, why are majority of people just love to look at the outer of someone? Can't they just look at my inner? I feel hurt, you know? He only likes the slim and pretty girls at our school. Not like me. I'm fat, ugly, have many pimples and stupid. So, what's wrong with that? I can change that although it may take a long time to get rid all of these he hates on me! But, my attitude? i'm better than all of those girls that he thinks are the most suitable for him. When I heard that, I could feel my heart will burn and my cheek will go warm and I feel like I want hit him with my Karate.

11 October

Dear Diary,

These 2 weeks I will be gone for a camp and he will be in my patrol and you know how much I hate that? Uuurgh! But, that's how it goes, so it seems that I'll just have to take it. I will be packing my clothes and things next, so I hope nobody will secretly without my permission will take you from where you belong and read you, okay?

26 October

Omigosh! He's really different in the camp than he usually is when there's his friend by his side... I feel really weird about him. Like, I don't even know who is him before and never talked to him BEFORE! But, he's okay at the camp and he'd been a good friend for me. He accompanied me to the jungle when our teacher told us to go to the jungle with our own partner and our partner must be our opposite gender. Then, he picked me and I felt so weird. But,... It was a wonderful night for us two in the jungle when the moment I got scared and I hugged him. He looked me in the eyes and smile. And I can feel my cheek went warm and my heart beated faster than ever and I hope he didn't heard it.

16 November

I heard mom and dad said last night that we will transfer to another place this year end and maybe we will never be back again at this place because Dad is going to be a Big Boss when we go to the new place. Although we are going to leave this place where all my sweet and bitter memories were made and where I found my first love.

22 November

I had already told him the news and I also told him that I'm gonna miss him... and guess what, he kissed me and told me that him too, love me... He doesn't mind my outer because he had already being fooled by many girls that is good at the outer, but have a devil-inner. So, he told me everything that I need to know and made our ending happy. And, I think, we have absolutely a "Happy Ending" that nobody will ever feel how I feel now...


(This story have no relationship with me ah? So, don't missunderstand k?)